At the time of my disappearance, the cla.s.s leader suppressed her feelings and made a rational and wise series of decisions in order for me to be successfully rescued.
I was thankful for everything the cla.s.s leader did for me. It might be a bit ominous, but I feel that the cla.s.s leader is the right person to handle the events after I pa.s.s.
No matter what happens, she will arrange everything properly for you and you will be buried happily with a smile on your face.
Your last wishes will be satisfied as much as possible, your loved ones will be comforted, but after everything ends and the crowd scatters, who would be there to comfort her?
On the contrary, Xiao Qin is completely controlled by her emotions. It’s what made her ignore everything and come looking for me alone with Obama. The fierce emotions of wanting to live and die together was indeed touching.
Although Xiao Qin took away my T-shirt and made the police search dogs powerless, I won’t blame her. Xiao Qin risked her life to find me in a forest infested with wild animals, so I would be heartless if I still blamed her.
Also, Xiao Qin was anxious, so it was impossible to foresee the cla.s.s leader will calmly notify the police, and that the police will also bring search and rescue dogs.
Even if my rescue was delayed because of Xiao Qin, which led me to eat the b.u.t.terfly because of my hunger, so much so that I suffered a heart attack and risked dying of poison… I do not blame Xiao Qin.
As I was at the bottom of the trap, writing my final note with a trembling hand, I reacquainted myself with many valuable things that I usually overlook.
Even if I don’t have much time left, I am grateful for the extra time that G.o.d has given me.
If I think about it optimistically, at least I can say goodbye in person instead of leaving a note.
Personally, I think the only thing that can be blamed on Xiao Qin is that she went into the forest alone, without regard for her mother’s feelings, which indirectly led to Auntie Ren’s car accident.
Dr. Yu told me that Auntie Ren’s condition had stabilized last night.
After Xiao Qin supported me out of the mountain, Peng TouSi, who was slightly skilled in medicine, gave me a simple examination and then pa.s.sed me to Dr. Yu.
Dr. Yu had already learned Xiao Qin was Auntie Ren’s daughter by listening to the other students. He felt my carotid artery and told Xiao Qin, “The kid is just starving, there’s nothing wrong with him”, and then told her to hurry to the hospital to visit her mother.
After learning that I was okay, Xiao Qin went to Auntie Ren’s hospital bed and cried and apologized before she finally fell asleep with tears in her eyes, which gave me some peace of mind.
I hope that Xiao Qin will henceforth understand that her life does not just belong to oneself. It’s better if she doesn’t think about dying for me so that I will always remember her anymore.
“Um, Dr. Yu, the child in Auntie Ren’s belly…”, I finally asked the question that I had been concerned about, but did not have the courage to ask.
“Child?” Dr. Yu made a very exaggerated expression, “That woman did that even when she was pregnant. I think it’s good enough she was able to leave unscathed.”
I now understood my brother/sister, who was not yet born, had pa.s.sed.
I had a strong feeling that the unborn child died in place of me, their brother.
It’s my fault, right? I should not have written in the note, if it’s a boy, then give him the name as me… is it because they claimed the wrong soul, so I was able to luckily survive.
Although if you look at the times, Auntie Ren miscarried before I wrote the note, so there was no causal relationship, but I still felt bad, since after all, this series of events was because of me.
The marriage between my dad and Auntie Ren will also be a bust, so in that case, will Xiao Qin still become my step-sister?
Xiao Qin didn’t know the reason why her mom was hospitalized was because she had a miscarriage. In order to hide the fact that she was pregnant from her daughter, Auntie Ren lied and told her that she had been stabbed in the stomach by a broken piece of gla.s.s.
A mother’s thoughts are very complex. After she saw that Xiao Qin had returned safely with a few non-serious injuries, Auntie Ren began to silently mourn again for her child that had pa.s.sed away in her belly.
Since the pregnancy had been kept a secret from Xiao Qin, she couldn’t share her grief with her daughter. The only person she could talk to about everything was my dad who had been taking care of her the entire time.
Although she said on the road, “Your vile sp.a.w.n should have died long ago”, when the “vile sp.a.w.n” really died, Auntie Ren suddenly became very sad and depressed. Dr. Yu said, she probably had depression from the miscarriage.
My dad, who was suddenly faced with a frail Auntie Ren, took responsibility as a man and did his best to comfort her, exhibiting a rare, a very reliable appearance.
When Auntie Ren’s miscarriage was already settled and before Xiao Qin and I were saved, my dad mustered up courage as a man and helped Auntie Ren get through the most difficult time.
My dad later told me: the reason he did not break down was because when he was staying by Auntie Ren’s bed, he dreamed of a glowing child waving goodbye to him and saying in a childish voice:
“My older brother and sister will be okay.”
After waking up suddenly, he couldn’t remember the child’s face, but the words were deeply imprinted in his mind.
My dad, who was not superst.i.tious, was sad because of this dream, but also had blind faith that Xiao Qin and I would be saved in the end.
At the time, Auntie Ren was extremely vulnerable and emotionally unstable, so if my dad had also broken down along with her, the consequences would have been unimaginable.
Although I believe in materialism, I prefer to interpret my dad’s dream as a “subconscious self-compensation for his misfortune”, but I can’t fool myself. I will always remember this unnamed relative who was not born in the world.
Xiao Qin appearing at the hospital where her mom was being treated confirmed my dad’s words of comfort to Auntie Ren (Dr. Yu had warned to not disturb him while he was treating me, so my dad couldn’t come to see me immediately).
After that, while Xiao Qin was sleeping on the side of Auntie Ren’s bed and my dad was helping Auntie Ren, who was suffering from miscarriage depression, to go to the bathroom, in an untimely manner, my dad mentioned the dream he had a few hours ago to Auntie Ren.
The result was he caused Auntie Ren to bawl, but she suppressed her voice because she was worried about waking up Xiao Qin. My dad awkwardly hugged Auntie Ren after she flung herself into his arms and pounded at him with her fists. If Auntie Ren had not been weak because of the miscarriage, he would have left the world first.
“Don’t be sad, it’s not good for your health.” My dad patted Auntie Ren’s shoulder to comfort her, “At least Xiao Lin and Xiao Qin were found, otherwise…”
“But in the end, we still lost a child.” Auntie Ren cried out in pain for the child she tried to abort and called a “vile sp.a.w.n”.
My dad was also brought to tears, he could only hug onto Auntie Ren tightly, “Hong Li, don’t cry, you’re making me also want to cry. He’s an understanding child, so if he wants, we can let him try again, I won’t let the same thing happen next time…”
Auntie Ren did not make any comments, but she bit onto my dad’s should to control herself to not cry out loud.
After this series of events, I felt that although Auntie Ren miscarried, the distance between her and my dad was closer than before, which means the two of them still had a chance.
Although Dr. Yu was eccentric and did not allow people to come near when treating me, he was still Ai Mi’s personal doctor and we were both in the medical room of Ai Mi’s RV.
So the news of me waking up soon reached Ai Mi’s ears. Ai Mi, who only slept for four hours last night, stood angrily outside the gla.s.s door of the medical room in her pajamas accompanied by Peng TouSi.
“It took so long for you to treat the manservant, you quack doctor.” Ai Mi’s m.u.f.fled voice came in through the gla.s.s door.
Dr. Yu knows that Ai Mi and I are brother and sister. Peng TouSi probably also knows that Dr. Yu knows, but Ai Mi is not sure if Dr. Yu knows, so she still calls me manservant in front of him.
I think, compared to “brother”, Ai Mi prefers to call me “manservant” or “d.a.m.n manservant”. So if Dr. Yu does not reveal that he knows, she will pretend to be confused, so she doesn’t have to call me brother.
Dr. Yu didn’t want to argue with Ai Mi, so he opened the closed gla.s.s door from the inside, and then kept his promise with me beforehand and said to Ai Mi:
“I already completely cured him. But it’s none of my business if he does something to get himself killed later…”
“Is he really okay?” Ai Mi’s blue eyes flashed with suspicion, she looked at Dr. Yu and then looked at me, who was sitting on the operating bed.
In order to keep Ai Mi from getting suspicious, I took the initiative to jump off the bed. I stood on the cold floor with my bare feet, then flexed my arms show my sister how strong I was.
“I’m fine, it’s nothing. I could even partic.i.p.ate in an underground boxing match now.”
Looking at my sister’s frightened and slightly haggard face, I said softly, “You should go back to sleep. Your voice is a little hoa.r.s.e, how can a famous singer not care for her voice…”
It looks like I was able to fool Ai Mi by pretending to be lively. Her worried expression gradually subsided and was replaced with a slightly angry expression.
“Squat down.” She issued a strange command to me.
To show that everything was normal in my body, I quickly crouched down in front of her, not knowing what she was going to do.
When my face was lowered to about the same height as her shoulders, she reached out her small hand and slapped me on the face lightly.
Is it a slap? Compared to the cla.s.s leader and Winnie’s slaps, her slap was at the level of a paramecium, it doesn’t hurt at all! Did you order me to crouch down beforehand because you can’t reach me even on your tiptoes if I stand up straight?
“Hmph, you’re obviously a lowly manservant, how dare you make me so worried.”